Fuck it day

Today is what I like to call a "fuck it" day. Kaela and I both woke up to find our heads cloudy, our noses plugged and our minds still trying to find a place to settle between doing jumping jacks and going back to sleep. In other words, today was the day of the bed ridden loners, content to lie back and watch TV and take naps. I only go out of bed for food (most of which was simple or delivered). It pains me to think that I can't do this every day. I mean, I have to find a job yet this simple task has been taking me months.

My sister sent me a package today containing two bottles of VeeV and a little porcelain travelers mug. And guess what, the mug was filled with mint candies... a move I thought would be too cheesey for my sister to pull. I am pleasantly surprised by this bold move of domestication by my sibling. I was recently thinking about the domestication of loved ones, people settling down with their significant other, signing off on a mortgage and working for the next promotion. It was eye opening... not that I don't think their decisions are the wrong ones, I just don't see myself at that point at my age. I recently go denied entry into the Seattle University Masters in Teaching program which I now see as a pretty good thing. The reason why I applied to the school was really just to see what would happen. I wanted to do something and follow through it to the end. I did that; weather or not they accepted me had no impact on my goal in the first place. If I did get in, it would be amazing but I doubt that I would have even accepted their invitation. I'm glad I went through the process and had come out the other side unscathed. I think it really opened me up to new possibilities and a new view upon myself. I feel more confident in my choices and I hope that confidence will grow as I do.